pissed

1st they forgot me for lunch, and they call it a team lunch. It's fine, then she said I shouldn't because there are a lot of processes and procedure to claim my OT. It's like WHAT THE FUCK? I should be fine taking time off right? HELL NO?

This is absurd, totally whore-shit.

If I rather have time off, I'd wouldn't be working? I'm working because I need money, I fucking NEED THE MONEY.

Anyway, I can't work with fickle-minded people, more so women + some of them already have that built in?. The worst thing being, they can't even protect me, at all? When Kings fight over power and land, the pawns are sacrificed, for their own benefits. So am I? FUCK no, I'm not your PAWN, definitely not so. I came to help a friend, I'll attempt to fulfill what I intended to do.

If JP's on, I'm going to go.

Sorry Tracy if I'm beginning to sound or look or behave like one of those people. I'm already 23, I'm from Singapore, a place no different from Hong Kong, under such drastic demanding conditions, people change because... aish, June we'll have HTHT kaes! There's like a gazillion stuff I want to talk to you about. Because you're my Fairy Tale, a real Fairy Tale !

I've made my choice, I'll be ruthless or decisive when I need to. Money is only a material item? That is easy for those, fortunate to say. For beggars, paupers or derelicts like me, when it is essential for survival, (I'm not saying that I've got no money to eat), but there are things that are needs to individual, essential to pull out the maximum output in me.

I hate this fuck-ed up shit, why must "weak" otherwise known as "nice" people be taken advantage of, while those pricks and bullies get all the pat on the back? People often ask why do Singaporeans behave in certain manner. Our moral education wasn't an absolute failure, but the society and culture in the making, is turning us into moral-less vampires. It's our never endless hunger for success, focus only on the figures that measure success while neglecting the real measure of a country's or person's success; Happiness.

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At Golden Shoe complex, there are people that really pisses me off. While queuing, you're bound to "overlap" walkways. Often I'll leave a gap at the walkway so as to allow cleaners, hawkers and other customers to have the ease of carrying their items. Yet there were always people trying to nudge or hint me to MOVE. I mean, people, like what is the difference? It'll be his/her turn when it's their turn! Sigh

Open your eyes and have a look at how these people behave, I'm astounded by being labeled as one of them. The atas people working in banks, wearing nice suites or dresses. My ass please. What's with that outfit when you, yourself isn't fit to be wearing them.

Half or those who are eating there are raking income about as pathetic as mine, wait no, more than me but they aren't well to do. Another half would be raking in more than 120gs a year. Yet, look at them, a bunch of *loss of words*

It's always those who are neither here nor there, trying to pretend to be the rich or having the that lifestyle of the rich and famous, but well, that's where ignorance is bliss comes in eh? As long as they are happy, I'm happy for them, AHA? Over my dead body?

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Tracy ah Tracy, I've been trying to figure out what do I want to ask you about, I can feel it but I can't express them into words. The day I would, I guess you're gonna laugh and just tell me to kill myself aha! I know you won't say that but ...


Balance: is the misconception that you are able to create an equilibrium through a perfect match of either component.
-Shi Jie™

Perfect : non-existence ;)