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I'm sorry but dear Mom and Dad, just leave me be alright. There's nothing we can do right now but to see it through. 3 -5 years, we'll be better, I promise... So just don't worry ok

I tried to post on veggieland but everyone's in the mood and I don't want to dampen the mood plus I've been the only one ranting and I don't want them to worry. Caron said "It was worst when I was at your level" So I think, "These 3 years will be the lowest point of my entire life" Poor planning, poor time management, selfish, selfless people... speechless.

Food for thought. http://tinyurl.com/2cjmwe3 So I am going just suck it up and complete the remaining months and leave. Actually there is nothing much to grumble or find fault with. It's merely the work culture, that is here to stay. No one says much, everyone just suck it and do their job. That is why, they are staying and I am leaving. Suck it Up ! It's only 1 particular person that I am having quite a lot of problems with anyway. The problem has persisted since day 1. So I'm going to work on my resume over the weekend.

why does things just get harder and lousier and . . .

5:45am: Woke up 8am: Reach Hougang 10pm: Reach home What happened to "go home 1 hour earlier?" Apparently i was told that people feel I'm paid a lot. *raise eyebrow* It is probably the first time in my entire life that I felt that I am underpaid and undervalued. Though it was only from one source, I should just take it with a pinch of salt, I've felt it way before. It's in the culture that you people are like that, but that doesn't mean that I have to be like you to work with you. You have no life doesn't meant that I have to have no life. The difference is shown in our pay grade? I'm paid 3 - 5 times lesser than most of you, so I can work 3 - 5 times lesser? Just because your work is deemed more "important" does that meant that my job is insignificant to be paid lesser? The amount of time we spent is about the same and yet I get paid peanuts? ===================== That's the bad side, T Hav Ecker once said the poor has no idea what is ...

a friend once said, you know, when I'm going to work, everyone is heading home. BUT when I'm heading home, everyone's going to work! So he doesn't have any issues with the crowd while shopping or taking public transport. This is me, "when I am going back to work, everyone's heading home, when I'm heading home, everyone's probably asleep" when i went off today, there's not a single soul left at office ======== It's the first time I am so angry with you ya know? Do you have the slightest idea how much effort i put in just ... Anyway, like what most people said, if you want to, don't expect any return... And then we try to act as if nothings happen... sigh ~

SJ finally left the city and moved into the suburb. Though the suburb isn't as big or spacious as the city, he loved it. The peace and joy of being alone... I've moved to a new seat, just like when I was in StarHub, it's just those corners where all the interns and temps seat together~ The uncool, unhip arena, but I love it! Sigh, everyone's calling my name and asking me to do stuff. They are expecting me to complete them promptly, correctly and with superb quality. I can do that, I'm trained, well drill in such jobs, but they aren't paying me the right amount, still I will just do more than the minimum for them. *Sigh* should have just tender and go back to being a Greenie ! I Impossible tasks ahead tomorrow. I'll head home late, go for a swim and head off to bed. Yeah, that's the plan. Saturday will be my debut for Mavericks, Sunday swim again and the following week I'm so gonna start badminton with Meng! Life without school... ROCKED!

13th May 2010 Is a self declare Self Reflection Day ! It's 2:03am so I'll blog later =============================================== Sunday, 16th May 2010 On 12th of May, I died. I gave up on my final paper. I just could not absorb any further, I need a days break, or 2 days if possible, to rest and to remain sane. All the way back to 2009, when people told me working and studying is going to be tough, I mere smile and said that it'll be a good condition to see what I am made of. Pressure, distractions, laziness got the better part of me. I flagged and lost. I literally wanted to just skip the people and well stay home. I slept at 12am and woke up at 10am. That's longer than the past 3days of sleep combined... ----- Thank you Zennie, Kai Kiat, Sebest, Zhenqi, Janice, Jasmine & Xandra for the support. These people are my classmates, everyone were very helpful and nice, especially Kai Kiat & Jas. Upon knowing that i'm about to give up or rather I gave up, they...

I've worked so hard, but still not hard enough, but if I were to work that hard, I would lose myself. When you look at life in general, you look for that spark, or motivation to set you running at that blistering pace. Right now, I've not seen that spark, and all that endless flaw of acceleration only leads to influx of wasted gasoline right into the engine. Where are you my spark? I don't live to work, I work to live -Owen Wilson, You me & Dupree

Finally 6hours plus, to my first ever University paper! First up, Principle of Accounts, my favourite module for my entire semester. Lecturer Mr Mok Tian Soon has tonnes of jokes, some are funny some are cold, to keep the lesson light, fun and relax! Singapore Expo Hall 4. Can you effing believe it? Exams at a hall, an EXHIBITION HALL!!! Anyway I gotta go sleep, for real! First paper, hope I'll do well and boost my morale for the remaining papers~ I'm lying if I said I don't want to score, but I'll be a liar if I said I'll get an A. So I'll be happy with a B~ hahahahha

Food poisoning + flu bug got me a week ago. Just cleared up my room so I wouldn't have a hard time breathing. Boys be boys, the dust and stains aha, spent a good 2 hours clearing up and still it's only half done! Wallpaper not updated though aha Citypulse DA2.03e USB DAC $680.00 my proudest piece Anyway screw the heavens or depths of hell for not helping me, instead sabotaging me, making my path steeper and bumpier but I'll not fall for all these petty useless tricks of yours. Be it god or lucifer, I'll kick you back to the 19th depths of hell which you've yet discover or the heights of heaven where the sun will burn your white pure soul into clouds. Shame on you idiots... Back to my battle for that far away As, I lost too much time. ==== Been awhile since I felt a little closer to you. I missed you I thought I've finally been able to keep you away for this period but I'm wrong, I still do. I'm glad we're meeting soon ...