It's been 3 months plus since I've started at Hewlett Packard's Global Business Services, Accounts Payable, None-Inventory, Hong Kong team. (HP GBS APNI Hong Kong). Minus off my 20days of absence due to reservice, I'm about 2weeks shy of 3months into the job.
Today is my first YEC ( Year End Closure ). Crazy as hell, wrong entries made, wrong attachment sent, careless mistakes here and there.
Excuses:
1. I was being cramped to learn EVERYTHING during the 1st 2 months while people take about 4 - 6 months to learn everything.
2. Fatigue, due to work and study at the same time, hence the loss of concentration at work.
I believe i made the correct choice by joining HP.
a. Gives me a good idea how accouting originated from
b. Understands what MULTI-TASKING really is.
c. Finally having to have my own set of work and not requiring approvals after approvals.
d. Reality check as to where I stand
e. To find out if I'm really able to and should go into the Finance industry.
The teammates have been very kind and tolerant of my carelessness and forgetfulness, support and help me in whichever way they can, ensures that I'm learning and not spoon-feeding me. Entrust me with responsibilities which, my errors, would ultimately affects their performance bonuses.
My boss has left, my new boss, is my ex boss's boss who is the head of the whole Accounts Payable Department, has been very supportive. She does let me know that silly errors should've never been made but I do feel a little biasness towards me.
All of them have been nice as my work ethics and attitude is clearly distinctive, compared to the peers around me. In my utmost honest opinion, their quality of work, is definitely MUCH better then mine. Most of them do not have previous working experience, and hence the responsibility level is not as adequate.
I'm doing the extra, and ensuring that my work is done, was solely because of the ultimate ego lingering within. I dislike being criticize. I don't really enjoy being question too and hence I try to not allow such events to occur. Of course they do, when they do, I get fucking upset. Like today.
Also, I'm studying part-time, I can't work OT most of the time.
Work is being distributed and expected to be done, when 1 person does less, the rest does more. I think it is only fair that I do my part, or slightly more because they are really flexible with my schedule and workload.
So, after all this whoreshit written, I'm just doing the bare-minimum. OR Fair-Value, to the amount I'm receiving every month.
So
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I still do not think I'm being accessed in a harsher or stricter environment than I'd like to. I shouldn't complain, just afraid of not being able to deliver.
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