In less than 11 workdays or less than 15 days, I will complete my first contract term with Deutsche Bank. I will be back in January 2013 to continue a short term of 3 months.
I still remembered visiting their office years back when Caron's there, I was still in OCBC. I will always buy food over and eat at their pantry, admiring at the class lobby, luxurious and spacious pantry with the sophisticated foreign bank's "branding".
3 years on, here I am, living the dream I once dreamed about. During one of our personality evaluation training session at OCBC, there was a section to teach us to visualize and write down our short term vision aand I wrote
"DEUTSCHE BANK EMPLOYEE in 3 years time"
Laws of attraction - http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/The_Secret_%28book%29
Not sure if anyone knew or read about this, in short, we become what we think about. BUT for that to happen, our "want" has to be very strong and powerful and manifest at an exponential rate.
So here's SJ bragging about his success in/with life again? Yes/No/Maybe?
As the tittle indicate, I'm really disoriented. I left Hewlett Packard, a place where I was cherished, I performed and was recognized, a permanent position for a temporary contract role with Deutsche Bank. Benefit of those who hasn't read the earlier articles, I'm more like a "coffee boy" at dB, my efforts are required on a adhoc basis.
I left HP because i felt that there was no room for me to grow, not just to grow but to bring me to a higher level of competitiveness. I often felt lethargic and not motivated, work was easy, there isn't a prospect that I can see and feel excited with at GBS (Global Business Services) and then I left. Hoping to be absorbed into the fast pace environment, which, everyone would think, is competitive.
Recently I lashed out at my interim supervisor that I need a portfolio, I can't be like this, doing nothing whole day long waiting for work to come, I'm slowly suffocating...
They've hired another temp girl for 6months, and me 3 months, makes me wonder if I am so free, what is she going to do? Am I inadequate that I can't perform the tasks that she can? If I am inadequate why are you still extending my contract? I'm lost totally, of course I don't show it, less than 3 weeks and my contract will be due, i put up a brave front as though nothing's wrong and come to work.
I've begged, volunteered and fought for work, I can't believe this myself.
I hope to be with them till i graduate, the quality of people is ridiculous, and I think i need to be constantly pushed to improve.
People there take CFA and ACCA all the time, when you ask them how long did they took to complete? 3 years. They don't fail any module, reason for not clearing earlier is simply because exam is only held once every year for CFA.
Contradicting myself? Did up my accounts and looked at life for the past 6months. Life's been good, financially, onwards I've still quite a bit to pay so I guess money's still quite a priority, for now.
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