In a bit of a pinch actually, happiness wise, rather depressed these few days, the promotion actually did me no good, especially more so within the team, there are more jealousy than genuine appreciation. It's in the blood of my generation to think the world about themselves and lack that humility. Still you can never find fault with that because they will replace the next generation whether you like it or not.
My only solution is to stepping up and showing them how good or how pathetic they really am, which doesn't really sit very well with couch potato here. Go big or go home, if I have to step up, I'll go all the way and you guys will be up against a real formidable opponent ya know?? Then again, no one force me to go into one of the ugliest industry in the world, in actual fact I once relish the hostile environment, that is, before I went in.
Football's been shit, Liverpool hasn't won in so long, ridiculous performance, tactical blunders etc. It's really tough to be a Liverpool fan, 26years without a league title, endless taunts from asses world wide. I know it sounds stupid when you're cheering your guts out 1/2 way around the world and it doesn't actually make any sense but . . .
Lost interest in a lot of things, movies in particular, can't be damn to get into the theater, not for Great Wall, xXx or even Star Wars. Stopped playing piano for a good 3 weeks too. The only respite's that I've quit smoking since 30th December 2016, it's not coming as hard as I thought it'd be, just missing it after meals and times like now, when it's dark with nice amazing weather and when you're not exactly happy.
I've ran out of stuff to buy to be honest haha, like for reals, that's how bad things are. Maybe i should start cooking again...
Chinese New Year's around the corner, never really like festival like these, the whole facade of people pretending to care for their family, once every year how pathetic??? The tiresome traveling, smiling, Q&A session, but food should be ok?? I Guess??
Next come's valentine's day, no plans actually, and I'm off on 23 - 24th to celebrate my birthday before heading for reservist from 28th Feb to mid March, really looking forward to that period to have different perspective of life and well I do need to work on my off day, team's fairly thin and yeah...
That's how things really are these days, really depressing... maybe I should look at some places to go to for the long weekend on my birthday. I should also stop spending so much and squeeze out that Toronto trip this year which I initially canned, now that I've 26 days of annual leaves instead of 21.
May: Seoul -> Busan -> Gyeongju/Jeju (6 days)
June: Penang (1 day)
November: Toronto (10 days)
December: Hanoi (5 days)
Left with 4 days which I took 1 for my mom's and than 2 days for my own birthday and probably 1 to do fuck all sometime. Such a wonderful weekend and I'm all so, senseless and empty.
My only solution is to stepping up and showing them how good or how pathetic they really am, which doesn't really sit very well with couch potato here. Go big or go home, if I have to step up, I'll go all the way and you guys will be up against a real formidable opponent ya know?? Then again, no one force me to go into one of the ugliest industry in the world, in actual fact I once relish the hostile environment, that is, before I went in.
Football's been shit, Liverpool hasn't won in so long, ridiculous performance, tactical blunders etc. It's really tough to be a Liverpool fan, 26years without a league title, endless taunts from asses world wide. I know it sounds stupid when you're cheering your guts out 1/2 way around the world and it doesn't actually make any sense but . . .
Lost interest in a lot of things, movies in particular, can't be damn to get into the theater, not for Great Wall, xXx or even Star Wars. Stopped playing piano for a good 3 weeks too. The only respite's that I've quit smoking since 30th December 2016, it's not coming as hard as I thought it'd be, just missing it after meals and times like now, when it's dark with nice amazing weather and when you're not exactly happy.
I've ran out of stuff to buy to be honest haha, like for reals, that's how bad things are. Maybe i should start cooking again...
Chinese New Year's around the corner, never really like festival like these, the whole facade of people pretending to care for their family, once every year how pathetic??? The tiresome traveling, smiling, Q&A session, but food should be ok?? I Guess??
Next come's valentine's day, no plans actually, and I'm off on 23 - 24th to celebrate my birthday before heading for reservist from 28th Feb to mid March, really looking forward to that period to have different perspective of life and well I do need to work on my off day, team's fairly thin and yeah...
That's how things really are these days, really depressing... maybe I should look at some places to go to for the long weekend on my birthday. I should also stop spending so much and squeeze out that Toronto trip this year which I initially canned, now that I've 26 days of annual leaves instead of 21.
May: Seoul -> Busan -> Gyeongju/Jeju (6 days)
June: Penang (1 day)
November: Toronto (10 days)
December: Hanoi (5 days)
Nam Sam Tower, missed it last trip so we'll definitely go !
Gyeongju, known for their Ssam rice with table full of sides
Busan, the seafood galore, fish and abalone sashimi's a must !!!
Left with 4 days which I took 1 for my mom's and than 2 days for my own birthday and probably 1 to do fuck all sometime. Such a wonderful weekend and I'm all so, senseless and empty.
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