At 23 I really wanted to get into a Bank, a job was offered, I did not dare to fight for it, regret much. 25 years old another opportunity came, I fought like my life depends on it. My life really depended on that opportunity then and got it.
31, another opportunity came along, a front office job, a dream for most boys after pilot but... I was not excited ... at all.
Today, finally sat down with the hiring manager to talk about the role, the prerequisites and money over lunch. It's been a very very long time since I've had a business lunch, even though we knew each other, it was still very very ... awkward?
After everything I was told to give some thoughts about it... this opportunity is at the worlds number 1 private wealth bank's front office with state of the art technological system and a mentor that is positive, embraces change, walk the talk and in a fairly powerful position.
I took the rest of the day off since the system was down and I just needed think let things sit, came home, ate and napped.
Eureka ! an enlightening moment came up... YES, it maybe the best opportunity now but I really don't want it that much so why ruin that chance? possibly lose a friend too? It's not just my ass it's her ass as well, she had to sell my skill set ie. virtually non bcuz it's a different scope to her boss who'd pin it on her if I do not perform.
Recalling back when I joined Deutsche, the blood, sweat and tears I had, to get to where I am today was not just hardwork but grit as well...
I may think about this opportunity in future but I guess I'm at peace with my decision now.
Better luck next time SJ ~
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