16,830,720 seconds . . .
That was how long I've lived, excluding the days in my mother's womb and pardon any backdating to be done at the time of this article. That's 1/3 of any healthy living human being's lifespan, or 1/2 in my case? Something popped up about average Americans with fractions, 1/3 is larger than 1/2 cuz 3 is greater than 2! #justcantgetenough
As I look back and reflect on my mediocre life and scrutinize that lack-lustrous CV of mine, I began to wonder when do I want to go back to, to fix things, or to change things.
- Back to primary school, where I should focus on sports and dream of being Singapore's first BPL player?
- Back to secondary school where I should focus on bball instead of badminton even though badminton was my forte but I had much more passion for team sport?
- Back to national slavery where I should not take a diploma and instead immediately dive into finance, then again not, that diploma set such great foundations of mine today.
- Or not picking London School of Economics and Political Science for it's prestige and just any other degree and be done with it and have one toilet paper.
I can't decide.
Not because I'm "spoiled for choices" but because of what came along because I made those decisions there and then. I am grateful for the bad companies I've made, the tears of my parents when I did not make it to Junior College, the struggles and agony of juggling work and school and life which made me who I am today.
So I take a look forward
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I drew blank.
I've been reading a little these days, "The subtle art of not giving a fuck" was quite an interesting read 2/3 the way, final 1/3 seems kinda rubbish. "who moved my cheese" is a book for people who hasn't suffered or lived so this was nothing new. "The selfish gene" is quite intriguing but at an intermediate reading level type of book. It takes philosophical and scientific reference to explain "purpose" or "reason" for and of LIFE. I am only like 10% into it, definitely need a notebook and a week's break to jot down questions and notes to make sense of the full picture of this magnificent read... thus far.
I think i really need a vacation #period.
Oh that said, I just realized that I made a "promise" to go back to school. My hiring manager made me promise him offline not because of my lack of ability but the criteria of promotion. He constantly reminds me that he did not forget hahahha. I'm so #fucked god...
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