Even before I left Deutsche Bank and embarked on the uncertain journey into SMBC, I had already pondered about what lies ahead and how should I plan my journey around my career. I was comfortable at Deutsche and simply wanted to stay and do the same but at SMBC I had bigger dreams. The role itself had a workplan to provide identity, short term and long term goals the team tries to achieve.
I had a blast, learned a lot, the team was almost perfect and we compliment and cover each others' strengths and weaknesses.
All good things must come to an end, but I hadn't thought it would begin to end like this, still I was prepared since he tendered last year.
I do not really wish to say much, everyone have their priorities and freedom of choice and if they had decided to go, I wish them well.
I used to think we should stick through thick and thin and complete the goals and objectives we had set out to achieve before leaving each other on our seperate paths. I used to think that a gentleman's agreement is something sacred, similar to noblese oblige... I was simply too young, dreamy and immature.
Nonetheless, we still have to live our lives, I've resigned to fate that we will not be working together in the future, or I no longer wish to have my sincerity stamped on, my heart broken...
Well I guess, my ideals are bit far too extreme, I can either build my own team and carry on my own dreams or I could just fit in and live a mediocre life.
Either way, 11 more years till I'd quit this disgusting, dark and hopeless corporate life and see if I have enough to move to Canada to live the remaining life in peace.
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