Decided to delete my twitter account because it was gaining too much attention and well it did more harm then good. Shouldn't have shared with my friend what happen even though she asked, shouldn't have? I don't think given a chance to redo this all over again I'd stop myself from sharing.
I was told to remove my tweets so that the damage will be reduced, I thought might as well delete the whole account. The explanation is really simple, I don't know how to give an honest reply when people asked why did I delete those tweets like I'm guilty of something, you don't hide stuff if you are innocent eh?
For starters, the contents were non-vulgar nor were they of any defamation intent, not even close. So I kept 5mins to myself for some "thinking" process before I decide on what's next. Like I said, if I didn't do anything wrong it'd be odd for me to delete those tweets, I got really agitated, overwhelmed by the whole situation where by my Queen was constantly being bashed, questioned and slammed with her kindness towards the "lucky" or "biased" us.
Memories began to come back, during the initial days of YEI, something ridiculous came along because of misinterpreted sms and I was kinda insulted from top to bottom, still being the older person, I decided to apologize so that we can salvage the bigger picture.
I'm still feeling really sore about it to be very honest. Why did I land myself into such a "sorry" state, apologize? To who?? Who are those people. I don't even apologize to my mother if I did nothing wrong, I got cane till I was on the floor almost begging for my life, I still wouldn't apologize.
The anger subside, I rationalize, I understand where the Kwonderfuls were coming from, I was once on their side cursing the States for our girl's fall. That's the thing with globalization, actually it's nothing with globalization, it's mere greed. Greed for more success, to be the first, greed for money. Anyhow, put yourselves in their shoes, their girls were owning the scene, they left, suffered, came back beaten and battered, and now their own girls gave preferential treatments to foreign fans? They have all the right in the world to be piss, pissed with me, or us NOT WITH YE EUN.
Solution? The problem is with our existence, the root cause is jealousy, period, you can call them selfish but KPOP is theirs, rightfully so theirs to keep. Most if not all of the fans have no interest whether their idols become millionaires from overseas earnings so long as they are happy and the fans get to see their stars. Hence the whole "tourism" or "gdp contribution" do not interest any of them. No one loves to share their favourite toy, more so lending their toys to strangers more than half the time, so please understand their actions, at least partially.
I do not tweet Ye Eun as much as most of the other people, I love to do stuff anonymously, once too much eyes are set on me, I get really annoyed, especially when I feel like I'm being monitored or my tweets are getting "approved".
So the solution to the problem is to cease to exist, not to kill myself but to just disappear as a foreign fan. I'll do the usual stalking via the "search" option to donate or to give suggestion, it's not going to disrupt any support I'm giving her, just doing it the other way.
Of course, twitter has been a huge part of my life, I met tons of H2H buddies there, seek news, joys, laughter and tears via that platform. Deleting it would meant a part of me will have to go away, well, you lose something, you gain something, that's the law of balance.
I really have no intention of resurrecting that account, of course there's still 28days left before it gets totally wiped out, I can't foresee the future but for now it's goodbye,
Good bye doesn't mean the end...
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