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When i have insomnia, I start thinking about Canada, what am I gonna do this time round, how my flights are gonna be, how will i survive it, when will I land, should I check in my luggage, who will pick me up, I guess Pat & Lawrence, will the kids be asleep, what do I get for them, where's the DC5, how i'll go to bed, how 12 days' of Pat's sleep be disturbed, where am I going to put my luggage, which side should I sleep on, new drawings put up by Sunny or the girls, how do I greet the elders, will I be hungry then, that cigg break without jackets this time round. What should I get for the adults, kids are easy ya know. When will i go to Vaughn Mills, what other colors should I get, where can I get undies, I'll bring my soap bar there instead, what blu-ray should I buy, will Pat be able to replicate that Pork Chops with apple sauce that perfectly he did, I still remember how it taste like and of course hopefully I don't mess up the potato salad an we don...

Marriage counsellor again. Communications is key, clash of characters are a norm, but if communication breaks down, there's nothing to really discuss right. What's the point when one's not listening the other is trashing vice versa. Since when marriage's about match made by heavens or bestowed upon, you have your differences, you find the middle ground, you fucking compromise. What's the point of bringing up divorce when neither of you gonna end  happier, doesn't solve anything. What' worst you know and yet you ain't listening and communicating. No one suffers but the kids. Soon there will be an extra curriculum activity for the broken families' kids. I'm not even laughing about this anymore.

"1 in 3 Singaporean suffers from OSA Obstructive Sleep Apnea " Channel News Asia I'm one of them. I first discovered I've got OSA when I was 14, I dreamed that I was at this knitting shop back at my old house and I stopped breathing and was on the verge of going out of breathe and I suddenly woke up from my dream gasping for air. It didn't happen again until I was 20. Ever since then, I've learn on how to cope with the disorder. I sleep at a certain angle, I cringe my face when I start having difficulty breathing or regulate my breathing to prevent myself from freaking out. The most effective would be getting yourself out of sleep, turn on the lights and splash some water on my face. This will calm myself down as well as bringing my muscles back to the "real world" state, if I do not wake up, the chances of me going back to the struggle is really high. I've been so lazy that I've had these attacks upwards of 6 - 8 times a night before. ...

Life begins.... And then Dad says ... But I realize big doesn't mean better, better doesn't mean best, and what's best for you ain't best for me. And then I decides too... But later did I realized things do not necessary go your way. I dream a dream... Today marks the 4yrs and X days at Deutsche Bank, my 2nd compensation year, wasn't expecting much because I got a 2/4 rating and it's basically trash. But somehow I got a 4 digit increment, my 4th in 4 years with the Bank including the intitial contract offered to me to join. Another milestone I've set last year, just so that I'm not living around aimlessly and I did it. I really do not know how but I just did it. Trace always right, I was burned out my entire 25 years of my life I've been chasing and sprinting after that zombie life. And when I stop, and start living a life, things just fall into place. Life's a bliss, I'm really liv...