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"You and I have a special talent. And I saw it immediately. We're the substitute people. I've been the substitute person my whole life. I'm not an Ellen [a co-worker Drew was into]. I never wanted to be an Ellen. And I'm not a Cindy either. Although Chuck's love me [Chuck and Cindy are the couple next to Drew in the hotel who are getting married…as for the "Chuck's love me" line…you'll just have to see the movie to get it]. I like being alone too much. I mean, I'm with a guy who is married to his academic career. I rarely see him and I'm the substitute person there. I like it that way. It's a lot less pressure." Who hasn't felt like a substitute person at some point? While being a substitute person does mean that you had to be close enough to the real thing to earn the title of substitute, it also means that you weren't quite good enough, or funny enough, or smart enough, or good-looking enough. And the worst thing abo

"It sort of make me lose faith in relationships" Love has always been sort of like a fairy tale, magical & dreamy, yet in our world, happily ever after seems so far away. Compliment Compromise Togetherness . . . -to be continued. . . ( rushing to Lynette's party, 25laps swimming and 3 hrs lecture before this, total lack of inspirations)

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Today is my last day @ Alphabet Media Pte Ltd. I'm currently a telesurveyer, being paid $6.50/hour to ring up prospective officers to provide inputs to our survey. The outcome will then be shared in the upcoming FutureGov Forum, which will be held in Hong Kong and Singapore in March. Enough of the formality shit! haha, i hate my job, like totally? It's the first time that I'm doing something that I dislike, and it feels really really tough and hard to swallow. Thank god, today is the last day! That being said, I love my office, I have a C2D PC, 15" LCD screen with full internet connection for me to surf Facebook and occasionally view youtube vidz. The best part would be the carpark at Bestway Building; the place where our office is situated. They have almost ALL the cars i fancy? RED Honda CIVIC EG6 Blue Subaru Imprezza WRX Blue Subaru Imprezza WRX STi White Subaru Impressa WRX STi (latest model) Red Porsche 2 Black Mercedes S350 Maroon BMW 6 series It's about the

Forget my trunks yesterday, suppose to jog instead but dinner was ready and they hated when I do not eat dinner while it's still hot and so I ate. Showered and sat in front of my PC, I yawned, looked at my bed and looked at the time, 8:01pm. I was suppose to receive a call from HK, Tracy is suppose to call Jan and we're having a conference but since jan has a test today, it was scrapped. I looked at my bed once more, set my msn on away mode, turn off the lights and hit the sack. For 10 minutes I couldn't sleep due to the laughter in the living room, my dad and sis are having such good time commenting on the latest Taiwan idol drama 海派甜心。Finally I head to wonderland ~ It's 5:30am when the lights were on, my sister was looking for her usb cable. I woke up to pee, only to know that both toilets were used *argh* I've changed, once I'm awake, it'll take me some time to re-configure my body to sleep mode? Miss the good old no worries no fret days . . . The alarm w

"SG girls are fucks lar, they CMI 1 lor. You ask them to suffer with you first they fucking leave you" -Eric Teo Poh Han The above comment was given to me while I was giving my sweetheart eric some glimpse of my life. This sore comment which once I agreed upon suddenly allowed me to re-organize my thoughts about the recent "change" in our local girls. Many many many of my close friends are immigrating or have immigrated, it is TRUE and it is REAL that our ever fast pace and competitive lifestyle here isn't really helping anyone. You will not starve if you work hard enough, but you'll not get the lifestyle of the rich and famous when you work your ass off. Anyway my point is, there comes this time when, in the past I've never ever thought it will ever happen to me but... I have this thought "why can't i just leave this pile of crap, and live my own life, fulfill my own hopes and dreams . . ." With myself even having the thought of leaving my

Even though I’m young, the pain is the same Just because I don’t know the world very well Doesn’t mean that I don’t know pain Why do you lie, saying it’ll be okay? How will my heart that hurts this much Be healed so easily? How will I live without you? That’s why I Can’t let you go, even if I die How am I suppose to let you go? Whether you go or leave, fix my heart If you can’t fix it so that I won’t be in pain So that I can at least live I wouldn’t be able to live anyway I can’t let you go, even if I die No matter how much you push me away I’ll hold onto you until the end So that you won’t be able to go anywhere If you’re really going to leave, then lie That we should meet again tomorrow That we should meet as we smile If breaking up wasn’t a joke, then I Can’t let you go, even if I die How am I suppose to let you go? Whether you go or leave, fix my heart If you can’t fix it so that I won’t be in pain So that I can at least live I wouldn’t be able to live anyway I can’t let you go, ev

Fair is not equal, time has never cheated on us, just like the quartz crystal, it only has an error of 12seconds in 500million years, if i did remember correctly, which doesn't seem to have any impact in any of our life's lifespan. Yet somehow you feel, time steals away ALL your time, when you're exceptionally blissful... I've always love simplicity yet variety, and I'm very particular about vibrations; which is sound in particular. Yet the fit of these 3 "characteristics" simply fuzed magnificently to cause yet another oxytocin outburst. The stretch of path never seem shorter, like you've always wanted it to be endless, so that you could walk for eternity. The silence of the night with the calm cool breeze has always been the best company for a moment like this. For this short minutes, regardless what happens, it has already be etched into my heart.

Sometimes there is this surge of oxytocin that explodes right through you, leaving you a little surprise and bewildered with fantasies and strength. Still all these are mere infatuation of your own thoughts, the feeling of attraction. If only certain things in life or in this world, could be ascertain by "levels" or "gauges" one wouldn't have to keep having this adrenaline rushed moments, when it is deep into the night, all quiet, a ballad song playing on the trusty speakers, the brain starts to wonder, the smile widens... As the music comes to and end, the heart stops beating, it compresses itself, causing an acute unbearable pain which is absolutely fictitious yet uncontrollable. I lie there motionless and stare into the dark sky . . .

Just read through my old posts, some were so nicely written, I wouldn't even realize those were my posts! But obviously there were some really badly written ones haha. Oh and I deleted some too!! Blogs are good !!! You can refer back and reminisce like totally?

Thank you ~

Boon Lay Rocks 2010 Pretty good theme eh? Bengish enough for this once Ah Beng Ah Lian filled area. Most of them have grown up, most of the schools have combined, and what's left around the regions are above average neighborhood schools or SAP schools like River Valley High. I was paid $8.00/hr to "shower" people who had tonnes of fun at the Foam Party, majority were kids but there were a few Philippino aunties and Banglahs queuing up. Occasionally I've nice teenagers waiting for me to spray water at them to "clean em up". Thanks to the kids who went for "full service"; All wet, most girls request for that too. Details I shan't include, let your imagination run, but it was nothing actually. Chalet @ Orchid Country Club With my beloved cousins, Audrey watching TV, Li Tong facing the camera, Yi Chao the only male, ugly betty aka my sis on the left and back facing me is the youngest cousin Li Jun. All those idiots playing on my bed !! They've

Went out visiting Sue today ~ She cook as usual ! Nice simple meal but ever so fulfilling! The gang went for Sherlock Holmes too! Looking at her, must have not went out for some time so I got us going! It was quite a nicely done movie, nothing was too cliche or over done! Had Carl's Junior for dinner. Suddenly I realized the shops around were closing, glance at my phone, it's freaking 22XXhrs already. Time flies, especially when you're really enjoying it? There's Yong Tau Fu & Chef Loh's pasta session to come next !! Been a while since I had this different experience.! What I meant by girls in specs makes me ... *shy* Ga-In totally changed !!! so so ?? speechless .. i think i'm feeling a tiny surge of it . . .

Is to learn piano... I attempted to learn when I was about 4 or 5? My aunt taught me, but I couldn't do it well because my both hands just can't co-ordinate. I can't sing for nuts, nor dance so this is just 1 of the "creative" aspects I wish to achieve. When you wake up in the morning, I will play this for you ... Jo Kwon I wanna at least to be able to do that =P

Been watching We Got Married, Jokwon & Ga-in's series. They were such a pair of cute couples, totally like made for each other? My heart melt and Ga-in called Jokown, Kwonnie ~ Right from the beginning it was so different, Ga-in was quite cold and all... go watch it for details. Love is such a contagious viral, ever since Sunday morning, after completing the series thus far, I've been yearning for love too. When I was going home from school, while boarding the bus, there was this girl who is trying hint that boy to kinda hold her hand or something like that? She went "ahh you're so skinny, you see, i could see all your bones and veins" while poking his left wrist, fingers, and then his right hands as well. She left them "connected" for awhile before taking them back. A moment of silence and then she started talking and went back, this time sort of grabbing his hands already? BUT he just stood there, like a total BLOCKHEAD ( Cheng Peng is also a Block

Just came back from "Boon Lay Rocks 2010". 12 hours of work, $96.00 earned. Not the easiest of money earned but well, it was fun and all. Food & beverages were catered and most of us were very helpful. I'm just too tired to continue blogging but I have to start 2010 going !~ It WILL be a magnificent year for me! It is, really a new beginning... to be continued. . .